Whisper n Thunder
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It Just Doesn't Matter
It Just Doesn't Matter
~ David Kitchen
Since my wife got leukemia, I have been doing a lot of soul searching.
I watch her courage as she suffers daily to overcome the effects of the Chemo therapy on her body.
Let me tell you friends it has been scary to watch her tip right to the edge of life and come back.
Our and everyone's prayers have helped.
The local racist idiots stepped up their harassment when they found out Sharon was sick. Instead of respecting a person's recovery time, they have been worse.
Just last night someone was on the empty property next door and snuck over here to trap one of the dogs under the house at around 5:30 to 6 am yesterday morning. And of course they kept the dogs barking all night. My wife got so little sleep that she was ill today.
I had called and written some Native brothers and sisters for help here. But none are available. I went to audition to play guitar at a church and they stopped communicating with us. I have put videos up on YouTube of some of the best modern Indigenous Songwriting works I did. Nothing happened. Every door, every avenue I have tried has been closed. Sometimes we have to realize that God / Creator is just telling us to let go.
And then I saw this old Bill Murray clip from the movie "Meatballs" and it all began to fall in place. Their team was playing an unbeatable team.
And nothing they could do would beat them. Even if they did beat them, the other rich people still have more than they could ever hope for. As Bill chanted "It just doesn't matter" with all the other folks in that clip, I realized the wisdom in it. No matter what we do we are still who we are and we had better just accept that and make the best of it.
I am overwhelmed with medical bills, a sick wife, and fools who want to destroy us and are mercilessly coming every night to mess with us. But Paul said in the Jesus Bible that he had learned to be satisfied in all circumstances, no matter what his situation. So to me that says that it just doesn't matter what is going on or who is able to help.
I am just going to keep trying to do the best that I can. And no matter the outcome even if the evil people kill me and my wife didn't make it, it would be as Creator had planned it.
I am not advocating giving up or depression. But I am saying that the attitude that no matter the outcome it is in Creator's bigger plan for the whole scheme of things.
We have to stay here because my wife is too sick and we can't afford anywhere else to live. But some wonderful people are praying for us daily. And we have our love and some wonderful animals here that need our love.
This isn't a negative "it just doesn't matter." This is a positive "the material stuff just doesn't matter."
It's what's in your spirit and heart that matters.
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