The Greatest Battle

~ Nitasha Half ~

Here I tell you my story with courage and strength. I’m not afraid and I’m not alone. I had my first and only child when I was 19 years old. Since then, I tried having a successful pregnancy later on in life, but I suffered from a miscarriage and from that day on I continued to work on my health. The journey for the greatest battle of oneself begins now.

I understand we question ourselves through time, why me? What did I do to deserve this? That’s not the questions we should be thinking; it’s how “I” can change the near future to have a healthier and happier lifestyle.

In the afternoon of January in 2010, I received a call from the doctor’s office with my results. The nurse had told me, “I’m sorry to tell you after the test results we found the reason of your symptoms.” After hearing the final words of the nurse, I felt overwhelmed and very sad. I was diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome. It’s a hereditary type of genetic disease. No, I can’t pass it to my spouse. Unfortunately, for my daughter she has the possibility of developing the genetic disorder later in her years. This syndrome can start at the beginning stages of becoming a woman or can occur later in the woman’s years.

The nurse had informed me the probability of having any more children is slim to none; however, with doctor’s help and prescription drugs I could possibly become pregnant. I do believe God will give me the blessing when I’m ready to have another child. Yes, I was completely in shock. The nurse recommended I make an appointment with my doctor, so he can treat my symptoms and give me advice regarding what else I can do to lower my risk for diabetes and put my weight in my control. Still in shock at the time, I said thank you for the information and wished her a good day. I hung up the phone. I then left my house in the pouring rain. I needed fresh air and a good walk to calm my emotions and collect myself. When it rains, it pours. Seeing the doctor the following week, he gave me helpful advice to lower my symptoms and to treat my syndrome.

Consequently, this is a battle within oneself; whether it’s cancer, diabetes, Alzheimer's, epilepsy, arthritis, aids, alcoholism, drug addiction, bipolar disorder and every other disease that’s out there today in this world. We all have one thing in common: we’re fighting the greatest fight in our lives. Don’t get me wrong though, I’m not asking for pity. I’m telling you a story. I want you to understand. I want others to feel they’re not alone.

I want you to continue fighting and don’t give up yourself. Don’t leave this without a fight. Persevere and climb over the mountains. Live for today, and remember what you do today determines what tomorrow may look like.

I understand, I feel, I have experienced the stories of others. There have been cases where someone had lost the battle or had given up on one self. If you know someone whose fighting any health concern help them and support them to the best you can. Even a little help means something. Pay it forward goes a long way and you will receive something in return because that’s the way of the law of attraction and how it works.

Despite the challenges we face it is part of the growing and learning process. The life choices we make lead up to our destiny. There shouldn’t be a reason why not to persevere just because we hit a few bumps and hurdles in the road.

Naturally, as human we are, sometimes we don’t see the reasons at first glance. I myself sometimes miss the bigger picture until I collaborate my thoughts and talk about my circumstances with someone I trust and confide in. The good listeners with the good heart won’t be there to judge you. They will be there to listen and add support. If people want to judge then ignore them, and just remember they don’t live perfect lives and their backyards aren’t perfect either. Stay strong within and find an outlet or two to balance your mental capacity. Never lose faith in yourself and God himself.

“Have patience with all things, but chiefly have patience with yourself. Do not lose courage in considering your own imperfections, but instantly set about remedying them - every day begin the task anew.”

                               - Saint Francis de Sales -

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